there was a little girl, carefree, young and pampered.
as she grew she began to think that life was all about her.
she reached a certain age where she feels she's old enough, to take the lead and live by her own rules.
she knows life has its bumps and things arent always perfect but she expect it to be,
only in her way.
little did she know what she's doing will bring her down.
she prayed for all the wonderful things given to her.
and like an answer, it did.
she was happy with everything and everyone around her.
they gave her all the attention she crave for, everything she ever wanted.
till it came to a point she became complacent and it turned into a tradition.
and if she lack any of it, she'll show her unhappiness and make sure they know it.
and then the most beautiful thing happened to complete her desires.
it made her happier, lifting her off the ground thinking bout her fairy tale story and happy ending.
she felt lucky and blessed, making her a better person.
but slowly, things started to change. things werent as pretty anymore.
money became a major issue, ties were broken and emotions became haywire.
it wasnt all easy. because her attitude continues, blaming others all the time, never wanna give in.
she had been living in denial even though she knew she could change it but she din want to, because she was too stubborn and sometimes, fear.
after much pain, she realised she shouldnt be that little girl anymore and that its time to grow up.
it took time and courage. she had the best support as well, the strength behind it all.
and when she finally did, things became so pretty till she began to fully appreciate everything she never saw.
the happiness she felt, it couldnt compare to anything else.
until one day, the little girl she thought was dead & gone came to haunt her.
the attitude came back and she did the most stupidest thing, breaking something so fragile and vulnerable.
she din even realise it till it hit her, hard.
however, it was a day late. and by then, it had already cause pain.
she look upon herself regretting every single moment of it and the pain continues to grow when she felt like she's losing something so precious in her life, the strength that keeps her going.
but she's not giving up on it. she'll fight for it as much as she can to get it back, where it was suppose to be.
because she's not that little girl anymore.
she wants to prove to the world she made it, who she'hv become.
she wants to show that without sufferings that's no compassion,
without suffering and so much pain there's no way she'll be who she is now.
and she hopes the world do not turn its back on her,
she hopes the world understands that and accept her again, even though she made a big mistake, a mistake she regret.
she hopes the world is able to see that she appreciate and devote herself to all the beautiful things given to her.
most importantly, she wants the world to know she's not turning back.
its all about going forward and making room for improvements, doesnt it?
and i'll continue to pray for her, for everything she lives for.
