As i fast today, i managed to be me again. not in the sense that i'hv been a different person but in a context where i lose bits and pieces of me along this roller coaster ride of life.
the motive was to control my emotions, feelings, anger, pain etc etc. and above all that, to regain my patience, perseverance and determination of a person i am. the most important was to gain back the whole lot of patience that went away in an instant yesterday.
gladly, i did. not the whole lot but a little bit.
that little bit that saves me from giving up.
This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed,
but I have loved you from the start.
So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in, I'm yours to keep
And hold on to your words 'cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight when you're asleep.
Tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you, over again
by solving and fixing, i hope to see a difference. i hope WE make a difference.
but then again, hope is too big a word when it does not meet with actions.
